慢活の龍媽

For those of you that feel stressful at work, you ought to try the following:
Invite one of your kid's best friends over to your house… I assure you that, in a brief period of ten minutes, you will want to go back to your stressful work.At the end of the day, I couldn’t help but to have the following questions:

Question #1: What happened to my angel?
Every time I stared at sweet Aidan, I wondered what happened to my baby angel Ethan? He used to be just like Aidan… sleeping and eating very well and smiling at people all the time. But today, as we invited Ethan's best friend Jerry over to our house, when I looked at the two wild animals running around creating mess EVERYWHERE, dropping food EVERYWHERE but their mouth, eyes glued to the TV, shouting, crying, fighting over toys, I really miss my baby Ethan. Who IS this wild beast at my house?! And not only do I have to deal with one beast of my own, are school-age children's mom all supposed to deal with other beasts also?

Questions #2: What happened to my friends?
As my blog started to flourish, I couldn't help but noticing something sad: All my friends from the States seem to have drifted away from my life. I don't know the true reason behind this, could be the distance, could be the time, or maybe because they don't have kids yet, or because they don't read Chinese…I don't know why, but all the friends that I truly care about, don't seem to care about my life anymore. There are weddings that I wish I could attend, baby showers that I hate to miss, and in their place, I have to deal with lots of people that I don't really care about, like Ian's friends and Ethan's friends…. What about my friends? I guess under the circumstances that I married abroad, this is unavoidable… but sometimes, I really wonder, why is it so hard to keep in touch in such tech-advance world?

I am already not good at socializing, and at time an introvert, the number of friends I have in Hong Kong can be counted with one hand, when I have a stressful day like today, I really just wish I have a friend to talk to in Hong Kong… someone who understands what it is like to have two 4-year-old boys running in your house and ruining all the scheduled events… but I guess I don't want my son to end up like me, I have to hang in there, so that he can enjoy the company of a friend later in his life! Oh, it's so hard to be a mom!